Do any of you ever worry about the future? I've always been a firm believer that what is supposed to happen will happen in terms of the future. While right now I am happy and content in life I still have periods where I sit here and think about the past (high school and beyond) and get sad and scared. I am 19 years old now and for most of you 20 is fastly approaching. At the time this site started I was 16 years old a Junior in high school and everything was set. There was the girlfriend, my best friends, high school tennis, and not giving a shit about school. Everything was so fucking easy then, it is funny because then I could give a shit less about how my life would be, but now I think about it all the time.
You know The Ataris song "In This Diary" where it says "being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up" and sometimes I can't agree more. I love being older and the wisdom I've gained but I still kind of miss the innocence and simplicity of high school and the mid-teen years. It scares me to think 5 years from now I may not have any of the same friends I have now, and it also scares me to think about what I'll be doing. The "Real World" is approaching that I know, but am I ready for it? I would answer yes, but that doesn't mean I don't miss things in my past.
I know some of you in high school constantly bitch about how bad it is and how you "can't wait to get out of there." Hell, I did the same exact same thing, but it wasn't truly how I felt. It's almost cliche to jump on that bandwagon. College is fun (yes even Grace at times), but it is also work and I would advise you to not be in such a rush to grow up. Enjoy the simplicity of your life and school now because it will be gone in a blink of the eye.
I know this was a bunch of ranting but when "The Ataris" song played on my winamp it brought back a rush of memories. Overall there are things I miss about the past (I think it's that way for everyone), but I'm content with where I am at now and excited to see what the future will bring. I'm still young, and learning in the process of life. I'm just glad that some of the friends I have from high school still remain strong now. We only have 3 more summers off (unless your an education major) so lets chill and make this one helluva summer, life always seems to be best then.
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