I agree with you on the fact that I'm probably quite emotionally involved in the present situation. Perhaps you're right in that I'll feel differently once I have a more objective view of the situation, but my point was that I haven't really been happy in quite some time. Walking in the path of faithlessness has not lead me to a good place. It's lead me to a place of hate, self-loathing, and unhappiness. Perhaps it is not a lack of faith or God, but merely character flaws or mental illness on my own part that has lead me here. Although it may lead to nothing, I'm going to keep looking for something. I want to be a better person, and if God and religion can help get me there, then so be it. I did feel something that night, whatever it was, and I have not felt much of anything for some time now.
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