Dear Nalgas,
First of all, you need to come to the realization that what you are doing in life, while it may seem noble to most, really isn't better than what other people aspire to do with their lives. Stop thinking that because you feel like you're making more of a sacrifice you are fundamentally better than anybody else... you're not.
Start sincerely trying to care for those around you. How can you expect for others to care about you if you don't show that you care about them?
Take some things (i.e. school) more seriously, but on the other hand, don't lose that innate sense of goofiness that you have always had. You know that's probably what I like best about you... your laugh always makes me crack up.
Stop being so afraid of the future. Its coming whether you want it to or not, so why not to make it as easy as possible by accepting change rather than running from it. Change is equally hard for everybody, so start learning how to deal with it.
Your world view is really, really ideallistic. Not that this is an entirely bad thing, but just be careful... things are rarely as you imagine they should be. I don't want to see you get hurt.
Remember to always and continuously thank God for the many blessings he has given you. Without Him you would be nothing. Also, don't be so hesitant to trust Him with every aspect of your life. I know that you seem to have it in your thick skull that you always know what is right and to trust anybody else with everything seems idiotic, but I'm pretty sure that the creator of the universe knows just a little more than you.
You are so freakin passive. I hate that about you.
Realize that your mom worries about you so much because she loves you more than anybody. Just remember that the next time she gets scared about what you're going to be doing for a career... admit it, its pretty dangerous and the last thing a mother wants to do is lose a child.
Your brother looks up to you more than anybody... ANYBODY!!!! Those are some pretty hard shoes to be in, but you are so give him something to look up to.
Stop working out so much... you're beginning to scare me. You definitely need to eat more healthily, though.
Remember that you are little without people to love and be loved by. Tell your best friends how much they mean to you the next time you see them (obviously try to refrain from severe gayness when you do this).
I know that you're really excited about this new girl you seem to have found, but don't place too much expectation on the relationship. Face it, you probably aren't ready for anything serious at this point.
Have confidence and walk firmly in the direction of your dreams. I've got a whole slew more to say, but you're probably tired of reading this for now. Expect to hear from me again soon.
Your pal,
MGN
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